Monday, October 13, 2008

God Speaks....

Yes, I'm listening.....I may be dragging my heals in the ground and scared to death but I am listening. He's really speaking to me in every way He can possibly think of these days...

Through the Pastor's I heard speak while serving on a Walk to Emmaus weekend.....

Through the words of this Sanctus Real song which I heard once in the morning and then turned off the radio to let sink in and then again in the afternoon when I turned the radio back on...

Whatever you're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos somehow there's peace
It's hard to surrender to what I can't see
but I'm giving in to something heavenly

Time for a milestone
Time to begin again
Revaluate who I really am
Am I doing everything to follow your will
or just climbing aimlessly over these hills
So show me what it is you want from me
I give everything I surrender...

Whatever you're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but I believe
You're up to something bigger than me
Larger than life something heavenly

Whatever you're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but now I can see
This something bigger than me
Larger than life something heavenly
Something heavenly

Though the readings of my Bible I read about Noah's obedience and doing "everything as the Lord commanded him" Genesis 6:22 and Genesis 7:5 No worries, God is NOT asking me to build an ark. He's just asking me to be obedient, He's asking me to trust Him, He's asking me to be patient with what plans He has for me regardless of how CRAZY it may sound and regardless of what others may say, regardless of obstacles I may face along the way.


There is a sense of chaos stirring inside, but the more I surrender, the more peace He gives me. I know that this truly is bigger than me and the only way I can do this is with His strength. I don't know how to be obedient enough, trust enough or be patient enough without Him there to lead me down this path.


Shannon said...

I loved this post! This explains to the very fiber of what I have been dealing with as well.

Isn't it so cool that even though you and I are different religions we believe that the same peace comes from the same place? You are so right about surrendering. The second that crappy feeling of doubt, uneasiness, worry, or hate fills in the bottom of your stomach Satan has you. Once you surrender all those feeling and give them to God and do the best you can and do all that you are asked, you will be blessed. And all that is troubling works out. Believe me! I KNOW!

Good wishes to you friend! I care for you! I do, even though we have never met. From the first time I "talked" with you, I know you were special! Don't forget that you are special, no matter what is going on in your life!

Chervenka5 said...

I'll be praying for your surrendering and therefore peace to continue!

Sarah said...

I think you give yourself too little credit. From what I can see, you do live a life of obedience. And, of course, I don't know exactly what situation you are referring to, but remember we are always hardest on ourselves.

And, your sweetie was either in rare form on Saturday or he's just that funny all of the time. We were still laughing the next day. It was great seeing you guys!